Thursday, 13 October 2011

these are the best of times, these are the worst of times...



pretty much sums up these days of my life.  It seems like there are many things happening all at once - some good, but too many...well, not so good.  There have been moments where curling up in the fetal position seems like a really good idea -
but then I realize that this solution is really no solution at all.  


The past three weeks have been...challenging... in so many ways.  
financial - family - health ... all taking a bit of a hit. 


 - fear - anxiety  - frustration...seem to be the easiest way to deal with it, 


but then I am reminded by things like this...




be still...


uffda - that is very hard for me.  I like to fix and fuss and fight.  Being still is not in my nature. 


Today when I was having some quiet moments (well...the room was quiet - my spirit was pretty much having a 2 year old's temper tantrum) I heard this song start to play on my playlist from my computer.  


It is written and sung by a friend that attended PBI a few years back.  These words were a welcomed sigh to my restless spirit.  





...for I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. 
 Plans to give you a hope and a future...
Jeremiah 29:11


4 comments:

Kmarie said...

I am sorry. As one recently walking through all those same problems I know how tough it is. ESP to find peace. Actually meditation helps. I started out with just ten minutes perfectly still repeating," the lord will uphold you with his victorious right hand." or " thank you God for inspiration and that this pain means I am alive." it sounds corny but it calms everything inside of me. I hope in the tough moments you are held up by creatives, inspirational moments, and quite respite. I have always admired you( which is probably why I get nervous and don't talk much- I blame it on Aspergers ;) but the reason I admire us for your sense of humor and strength through it all.
I hope you are blessed today.

Paul and Cheri said...

Thanks Shelia - your post spoke to me! I loved that song - bought the album! Praying for you today!

just sayin' said...

I'm here for you baby!!! Come bend my ear anytime!!! Love you! Fabulous song!!!!

The Sidekick said...

I just discovered your blog - are you inside my head today?! Thank you for this, for the encouragement to prioritise. I am looking forward to catching up with your writings ... in a controlled manner, of course! xo