one would think that at this stage of life, one would not be asking the question..
"what do I want to be when I grow up"
but here I am. On Tuesday I was informed that my position was only half needed. Cut backs. Honestly I would have rather been laid off completely, then I would have at least part of the decision made for me that I am facing now...leave or stay... Do I love this twice as much to make up for not getting half the paycheck?
Hmmm. That is tough.
So, I have spent the past 3 days- and many hours during the night -contemplating life. If I could do anything for a job, what would that be? I have investigated it with the most reliable source of information...
and have gotten some interesting responses from so many ages and stages of friends' lives. I have loved reading what others would do if they could choose their "dream job". I can see so many of them as reality - like...
krista as a food stylist
ruth as a hockey mascot
irina in a BC fruit stand
erin as a professional shopper (she is a ninja shopper!)
stacey as a hula dancer
but then some said that they ARE doing their "dream job". Can't say that I would consider being a high school secretary, or a librarian, or a farmer's wife, or a mom of 5 active little boys, or a nanny as my dream...but it is so great that it is theirs.
I love jewelry that speaks. I have a ring that says "renew * inspire * uplift" It became my life calling to try and do those things in my relationships.
About a month ago I got a new "talking" necklace.
This year of celebration of my half century on earth, I came up with this as my mantra, so to speak. I have seen 50 years speed by so quickly. I have realized that I don't have the time or energy to waste on anything but doing what I love and loving what I do.
I believe in a God that loves me passionately. I believe that if I delight in Him, He will give me the desires of my heart. But what is that desire? Therein lies the dilemma. That's what I need to figure out. It is kind of exciting, but very scary at the same time.
But isn't that what life is all about?